I was having an especially melancholic and exhausted early morning at work due to lack of sleep and the consequent frustration that came with it the night before. While at the same time rushing for yet another deadline, yet another stressful and pressurizing week. The pressure almost seemed unbearable.
Then, as I was chatting with a friend about work and how I had been treating work like a thief/robber and a hired hand as mentioned in John 10, I was reminded again that what do I have which I deserve, which I did not receive? Even this presumably tiring, exhausting toiling called work is another form of God’s grace. I do not deserve it. It is a gift. I was reminded to treasure it, and like in Colossians 3, to work heartily as working for Lord not men.
And in the middle of the chat, prayer to God and multitasking my deadline-chasing, my Spotify played this hymn “Lead me to Calvary”. I could not but stop whatever I was doing, totally captured by the words in the hymn and when the Chorus came, I was already brimming with tears. The hymn caught me at such a precise timing. When Christ seemed to be missing in what I was doing and no amount of complaining about it does anything. Then I prayed with the hymn: “Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget Thy agony, Lest I forget Thine Love for me, Lead me to Calvary”
King of my life, I crown Thee now,
Thine shall the glory be;
Lest I forget Thy thorn crowned brow,
Lead me to Calvary.
Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine agony;
Lest I forget Thy love for me,
Lead me to Calvary.
Show me the tomb where Thou wast laid,
Tenderly mourned and wept;
Angels in robes of light arrayed
Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.
Let me like Mary, through the gloom,
Come with a gift to Thee;
Show to me now the empty tomb,
Lead me to Calvary.
May I be willing, Lord, to bear
Daily my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share,
Thou hast borne all for me.
