Yet Again?

A stable spirituality is one which is not stable.

That’s what someone told me while I was struggling with beliefs, faiths, and sins.

It is so hard to accept the fact that no matter how stable I try to act or be, there will just be this shattering period, a period of uhh I’m so tired of everything, uhh I hate the way I am, uhh I hate this or that person.

Being someone who sometimes can’t help but be extreme, sometimes very strong, sometimes too weak for anything.  It’s even more frustrating.

I’m not even sure which one I actually am. Is it the strong one, or is it the vulnerable one? Or is it really both? So this is normal? It is okay to be unstable?

I don’t know. I will remember to response correctly in front of God, but… should I just stop the but, and just move on doing what I know I should do.

The Word of God, that’s what I need, and that’s what I am avoiding everytime I feel rebelious.

Sad…

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